my first ever blog post. like what the hell. how should i start?







like this?

WEEEEE ITS MY FIRST POST EVER! PLEASE TAG ME IF YOU KNOW ME!





no..

that will look

absolutely stupid! and very childish on first look. it may have in-depth sarcasm. but it looks childish.

and very the shen jing bing as well.

amazing how simple words can have so many meanings on an analytical person like me.


But anyway, if you are my friend : ) please tag me.

i suddenly! got the urge to create because i have a desire to pen down, or in this case, type down, the thoughts of my life now. i hope they would become fond memories.

i would relish the good ones.
and laugh at the bad ones.
i hope.. : (

but i think it is going to be a lengthy first post..



here we go and i apologize for my vulgarities.

i swear, the *place* i am in now is getting fucked up nowadays. seriously to hell with all the damn rules and regulations, a group of people who work together for a better cause ultimately should rely on trust and friendship. NOT DICTACTED BY SOME FUCKING RULES which will only get nerfed* sooner or better.


*a term for downgraded


ok genius, then what is the point of putting them up in the first place? nabey. you dont want to help people, at least help yourself. but no, you just want everybody to die with you. fucking stupid.



i hate scolding vulgarities seriously, but this is just wtf buay tahan. to the fucking max. i cant work with authorities who has got massive toilet bowls for cranial capacities.

we are not stupid de leh. stop thinking that we are like you, or maybe worse. we are all fucking educated in a country with a fair living system.( at least we were made to believe it is )**oooh the irony.

damn fucking sian sia. still got one more year. i only enjoy the place because of friends. to hell with almost everything else. zzzz.


even the food is disgusting.

actually it isnt... THAT would be insulting the word disgusting.






to be honest i made this. this blog. a week ago.. but i was too busy to think and write .. and maybe also partially kinda lazy as well...


recently in my life again, it has been quite happening. in a very unfortunate way. it has been more than one week ago.


it is one of those moments where you spend a couple of days in total dementia(almost) and become sane and normal very fast again because ive learnt from past lessons. 很痛苦. all the negative feelings come to you like all the raindrops flowing to a small drain.

sad? sorry man. im afraid sadness is only the beginning.

it is always a game of flying kites.
big wind, kite fly very fast and high, but more chance to fly away.
small wind, kite sometimes dont fly, when kites sometimes dont fly, people take your kite and fly.
no wind, lagi worse. DEN YOU BUY KITE FOR WHAT!!


we live in a world of desires and expectations. we always expect the kite to fly back to you at the end of the day. but we knn never think the fucking string will break one cos you damn idiot never buy insurance for the kite.


fuck la, even if got insurance, they pay you for the kite, the kite maybe also spoil liao.


sometimes new kite too expensive. not in $ way.


i hate flying kites. they hurt me so badly. t.t



天有不测风云 sounds so appropriate now. in both meanings. haha. CRUEL PHRASE!




my friend said it is like toys. but i think he too crude liao. at least kite got more YIMOSHENS...

afterwards you grind your songlist to relieve yourself. play and play and play non stop until sometimes no feeling.





when it comes to doing things, i am either a passionate perfectionist, or just super duper lazy(because i dont care about the end results)

when it is the former, i expect everyone to be a-sort-of honourable and trustworthy because you yourself put so much effort and time into it. and when i fail, i can be very very very upset. hard to recover. confidence shattered, thought asundered, every word related to breaking and destroying comes to you.

uoy evol llits i. just maybe not that much anymore. i am a person, a human, with all emotions a normal human should have afterall.


and i hate to hear sad things. we are all human beings, and sometimes we are too complacent and indulgent to see how fragile life can be.
you weep.
you cry.
after that you forget again. return from hell to paradise and forget how life is like with hell and no paradise.
such is the ignorance.
such is the human mind.
such frailty.
such is us.



you cant wait for things to come, and when they come, you miss the moments before they came.
tamade.
some people are never satisfied. with anything.