i am quite happy today because i finally found something ive been looking for for a long time.

i found my disco ufo lights!

omg, the lightssss are soo pretty can!

spin spin spin!

hahaha!

LOOLOL.

weee!!!!

knn this thing i find kanpua long already! so happpyy!

lol.

n i just cut my hair. zz it looks ok, just the appropriate length i want.

i had a disappointing trip to sim lim square and sim lim tower.

i did not hold high hopes when i went those 2 places on chu er to buy my cable for my speakers, cause i noe sure got alot of shop nvr open.

but thats ok, ill be happy if they tell me they dont sell that kind of cable.

BUT NO.

its amazing in a sarcastic way how stupid some people can get.

i am not generalizing here, but i REALLY HATE those indian shop owners at sim lim square.

the story was as thus:

i walked into the shop and asked politely if they sell this kind of cable, *takes out my cable and show to them*

indian shop owner : got got got, u go inside see.

benjamin : ...... (is this my shop or your shop, ok nvm i go see)

------search inside the shop for 2o+ minute and found nothing similar to what i want to buy, tamade----------------

benjamin : hey, i cant find, can you help me?

indian shop owner : (stares at me like an idiot) you buy my this kind of speakers, better than yours

he proceeds to take out one ten dollar cheapskate china mickey mouse brand speakers that he thinks is better than my cyber red minimax subwoofer speakers.

he still wants to demo to me his speaker when i already know my speaker is so loud at max volume that i can almost go deaf.

benjamin, amused but nvm : i dont think so leh, i asked for this thing and you show me another thing. and also, you waste my time. dont have say dont have, dont try to be funny.

i was like aiya suan ler no point wasting time talking to this kind of retarded ass.

i walked out of the shop.

chao bangalas.

chu yi has passed so now is chu er -_-.


just like any other year. but next year ill not be a green man!


just finished uploading and upgrading my music files-i feel my personal music folder is like a treasure trove man. so much good quality stuffs!! people say i have the weirdestest songs :(

gone were the days where i would be able to ease pass any regular iq test with a 140-ish to almost 150 score.


not exercising your brains for a quite lengthy period of time certainly has its own downfalls.


: (


i r stupidszdsaxxxx.

i shall keep this simple and slantbackward.

i am tired. tired is an understatement; my psychological health is ebbing away gradually but surely.

my tired fingers tap down on the jet black keyboard with moderate force. tappity tap tap on the little dirty black squares to produce these english words and sentences that mean something to me right now.

this keyboard feels weird. this place feels weird. i am being surrounded by weird sounds.

stranger in a stranger world.

i am not at home, i miss home.

loneliness surrounds me.

irregardless of that, i will not be spending most of my (happy?) new year outside of camp. __(-_- __ )

how horrendously dreadful is the feeling of being in camp on new year's eve.

i hope i can go home tonight. hope. hope? hope!

hope is diminished to the lowly depths of the netherworld in this so-called civillised-barbaric hellhole.

grr.

no time, no time. the twin hands of time are waging a permanent war against me.


i bought my new year clothes, my favourite flower button loanshark wannabe t-shirts, they look so sexy omfg!

you, or i! might have lost ourselves in the midst of life; we might be suffering, we might be enjoying!

humans have egos and self-awarenesses, so almost nobody would admit that they are lying to themselves right from the base of the heart.

they tell themselves and everybody what everybody wants to hear, people like to hear good things, see good stuff.

人就是那么肤浅.

just about everyone.

almost nobody appreciates the hidden stuff behind things, until someone initiates the chain of interest.

its like nobody bothers to buy the special set meal even though everyone knows that thing exists.

maybe my example is a bit off. but it is an example afterall, just a tad inferior.

easy way out is what everybody does, was that a natural decision, passed down from our ancient ancestors via genes and evolution?

everything you do, your physical acts, your intents be it benevolent or malicious, might not have any meaning at all... is that what you really think you want?

think twice, think thrice, always constantly thinking, pondering, upgrading your thoughts to the higher rungs of the mental ladder.

i could be very simple and straightforward, but i know that would be ironic, because everything ive just typed above would be against myself.

sigh.

if life was to be about obeying the laws of nature and everything natural, i would object violently because i believe everyone should fight for your own individual needs and desires.

that could be disastrous, only because the majority of the people succumbs so willingly.

simply put, i believe submitting yourself to the mundane aspect of life is totally wrong, no matter how right it may seem to you and everyone.

we are all intelligent beings! why!

ice kachang is colourful and delicious, but nobody will notice that it is only bits of cold solidified water and sugars with many kinds of colouring.

after all the positive comments from everyone, i want to watch ip man!

anyway, its not pronounced as i-pee-man.


its more of... yip marn.