lol, tonight going to book in as part of the omg-so-grand-ex-torrent-that-it-is-on-the-papers ..

and i just book out this morning only, how shitty life is now -_-

sian, i am going to buy some food in.

look at the weather, it is telling me not to go out today.

going to play lots of dota before i book in at night, something i really enjoy doing passionately as of now

i swear to god, the deafening roar of fighter jets makes formula one racing cars sound like pathetic little kittens.

especially when you are sitting 20 metres in front of them, and the blast rock your place when you are sitting.

thankfully i have my ears covered...

that night, i saw the scariest dogs in my life. they didnt even looked like dogs, more like a bloodthirsty pack of starved wolves.

it is the first time i have never seen such determined ferocity dogs display towards human beings, barking and growling and spinning restlessly in their tiny caged compounds.

from my understanding of animals, i could probably figure that they were ill-treated/trained from young.

i could almost feel the melancholy and loneliness behind their sad pale yellow eyes.


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hey..

boredom has overcame me.

not that it matters, but some of my blog content do come from the 2 minutes of dream recallation that occurs right after you wake up from a deep sleep. At that moment, for me, the brain is extremely active, but all the thoughts disappear when i go toilet to brush teeth.


i could remember most probably i was dreaming about chocolates, namely ferroro rocher and human behaviour.

somehow, the 2 topics criss-crossed and combined into one topic, the human chocolate.

some info from wikipedia:

Ferrero Rocher are spherical chocolate sweets made by Ferrero SpA. The sweets consist of a whole roasted hazelnut encased in a thin wafer shell filled with nutella/hazelnut cream and covered in milk chocolate and chopped hazelnuts. The sweets contain approximately 304 kJ of energy, and are individually packaged inside a gold-coloured wrapper.In Canada, Brazil, Hong Kong and Malaysia, Ferrero Rocher is a popular gift during the holidays, especially during Chinese New Year. Chinese culture associates the gold of the packaging with good fortune and wealth.

lol, are we all getting chocolate-hungry already? i am nearly salivating because i am always very hungry when i wake up.

somehow, i had this topic about how some human personalities are like ferroro rocher.

ferroro rocher has 3 layers, like me. like a ferroro rocher, i am also quite nutty as well.

this is what i feel about myself.

im lazy to elaborate, but 聪明的你 can imagine it, can you?

my usb line is spoiled due to duno what reason , i think its because when i attach to my minimax speakers keep pulling until its damn weird now.

going to funan it to buy!



[updated]



ended up buying at cwp, its cheaper...


walked like mad today! knnb ccb tired hahaha. from city hall walk walk walk den mrt to bugis frm bugis walk to little india( mistake ) and walk to dhoby ghaut then somerset then orchard. ate so much trash.

all in all, not less than 6 shopping places were visited, i think.

undesirable sacrifices we have to make with unsatisfactory results sometimes.

thats... life for you.

i have taught myself to make decisions for a higher purpose and good; what you see is not always what you get.

even if you get it, it may not remain what made you want it in the first place.

haha... sometimes, things are just so ridiculous to the max, you are so numbed and disappointed that you dont know whether to laugh or not.

some people acknowledge and accept,

some people rebel violently,

some people try to change the way things are.

which 'some people' are you?

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if i tell you im good, you would probably think im boasting.

if i tell you im not good, you would probably think im lying.

when you are nice, people take advantage of you.

when you are not, people want you to be a nicer person.

The one tragic fact of life is that stupid people are so cocksure about themselves and intelligent people so full of doubts.

the way of doing and managing things is all about moderation.

haha. what the fuck right? yeah what the fuck.

to wish that you were someone else is to waste the person you are.








woke up at 4am after falling asleep at 11pm or so for no reason -_-

yeah i did. i had quite some fun today, and felt happy about it.

happy about everything done today.

im tired and lazy.

...

dont think again

enough harm has been done

you will be sad, but its damn fucked up to feel sad

so just be happily dulan about it

now longer partially subservient

ultimately, your own being is above all

i taught you that, of course i must practice what i preach

nnbfckingccb, there will be almost no exceptions

for as long as i will it to be

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if there is a wall and the wall is ugly, no matter how good the quality of paint i use for painting the ugly wall, when all the paint drop off, you will have a fucking ugly wall again.

and remember, it will only look more and more obvious the more you try to cover it up.

you may wish to ignore it, but maybe you can stop living in your little own world because everyone else knows it.

lol fucking cheebye, fuck you to hell and back.

I THINK I WILL FEEL BETTER IF THE NEXT ONE YEAR OF MY LIFE GO PASS SWIFTLY


and its not just about the army

last 2 days were like no day no night, sibei shag, tired tired tired.

-_-
my longest sleeping time is about three and a half hours

i need to rest now
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decided not to go out today, because 1) i am exhausted, 2) the weather

its the start of november, but from my window here it looks like a swelthering june afternoon.

looks like global warming is starting to have an impact on our lives.

This is going to be quite a long post.

Blistering cold, passionately hot. Is what most describes my mood now.

Not conflicting, but its very me to look at the bad side of good things and the good side of bad things.

I think it gives you a balanced view of things. That way, when you make any decisions, you are less prone to any kinds of mistakes.

Back to what had happened the last few days. It was all quite monotonous. Getting confined because of something lame is not what the average person who looks forward to every precious bookout expects. Fuck.

Actions without thoughts. Thoughts without reason. Pointless.

At least from -my- point of view.

Obviously, "they" abhor individualism. To put it clearly, individualism =/= selfishness. They are like 2 very different words, to a very large extent.

It may all seem perfectly ok, as everyone is used to it, but they do not want to hear your own true opinions. Nor do they want you to voice it out. It is shunned and being hostiled against not matter how right and logical is is. It is about as akin to saying your say could be rejected and discarded like outright trash.

For me and many of us who were brought up in this era, in this world, in this country,( we are educated and intelligent beings) this is preposterous. To the damn max.

It could be as bluntly put forwrads as they are simply not adhering to their own beliefs and protocols.

Why the irony? Why the mask that they wear? Why the obvious deception?
Blind, deaf, dumb... or perhaps all?
From the third perspective of unbiased view, what they put forward is very shallow and meaningless.

I believe in the saying "tough times dont last, tough men do".

But what they are trying to put forward, is it really an absolute necessity? I dont think so, hence bring my point to whence it started: why the false pretence?

Anyway, new topic.

Fear!

Why do we fear!

I feel fear is a mix of fascination, disgust and curiosity. (Which is why some people enjoy watching horror shows)

Anything not familiar transmitted to the fives senses could be 'defined' as 'abnormal' and 'hostile' to the human body. It is the body's form of protection mechanism.

Picture a scenario where you feel something suddenly coming from behind you. NOW! try to imagine...

At this point of time. you do not know the intentions of this unknown object.

It could be your friend who wants to tickle you, or a robber who wants to steal your money.

Initially, by only possibly your sense of touch and hearing, you will feel 'disturbed' and slightly fearful, until your body reacts(by turning around) to allow the other senses to further process the information to clarify/confirm the details of the thing/object.

Hahaha.

Reminder to myself: songs to download

郑伊健 - 甘心替代你 (古惑仔)
林俊傑 - 江南
王力宏 & 盧巧音 - 好心分手

All canto! Canto rocks!