you might be reading this, or you might be not.

i dont know.

i didnt expect you to wish me happy birthday on msn, so dont be surprised when i dont know what to say, because i did not think that you will talk to me.

so i didnt say much to you. because i dono how to bring myself to talk to u normally and i also dont know what to say. if it offended you, i apologise again.

i have probably a million things to say to you. but i find it really hard to bring myself to talk to you. it is torturing me, but i still must do it, if not i think i will feel worse.

i know its been long since we even chatted, much things have happened. and now we are -distant- again. i feel fucking tong ku whenever i think of you.

again, i dont know if all these are going to make any sense to you.

haha, you might not even know what im talking about.

everything i do, there is a reason, and to me it is the best way out.

i am peaceful and i do not wish for conflict to happen.

i dont get angry easily... but that also means once i get angry, i become a person no one wants to see.

so sometimes i convert my anger into sadness, so i can only feel it for myself.

whether you will ever talk to me again, i dont know.

but if you do, i will try to speak something instead of a short and lame sentence.

once again, i say sorry.

周杰伦 got one song called 安静.
the entire song, even the fucking song title describes my fucking feeling.
i listen liao also feel like crying, i have no need to paste the lyrics here, i think everyone knows how to sing it.