feeling 1: lying down in the best position ever on a white sandy beach with beautiful coconut trees that sway seductively in the wind, enjoying the picturesque sunset and the utopian landscape that will never end, eating a million tubs of multiple flavoured ice-cream with unlimited supply of toppings of any kind you can imagine and getting a massage. at your side is a carton of alcohol of any kind you could ever find in your life, if not more. on top of that, the entire haven is also a babe galore. nuff said.

feeling 2: trapped in this vile abyss, spiralling into bouts of nightmarish thoughts and brain raping, with hordes of grotesque denizens so nefarious, so revolting, so degenerate and comtemptible that they make satan look like gabriel the archangel.
every second passes slowly, with the pain and torture multiplied countless-fold.
you dont know even whether you are dead or alive. it could be both. your helplessness piled on your incapabilities is like rubbing sulphur onto raw wounds, the shame and the agony unbeknownst.


ok that was 2 very different descriptions.

for some particular reason, everyone wants feeling 1, obviously.

ive just conjured 2 paragraphs of the most opposite feelings, it may be exaggerated,
thanks to my imagination or if you would like to praise me, my intelligence. if not, nevermind then.

1: book in
2: book out

hahaha. *gasp*


anyway, back to reality, life is seriously quite sian as of now.
im going to delta . for fuck's sake. help my balls.
i hope i really get to come back a/c shift.

i am also starting to have thoughts of murdering particular people,*joking*
but i really really hate people from the mlm business now.
because mlm is epic fail and they still glamourise it.
what the fuck, damn stupid can.
its like... i would like to ask him. are you stupid or are you stupid?
oh wait you are both. hahaha. fucker.
waste my time only. ccb.
so what if xxx is my friend, your problem isit. fark off la.